OH HEY THERE!
I'm Bianca, here to show you how to live well again with autoimmune disease
I remember being asked the generic motivational question "where do you see yourself in 5 years time?" and all I could think was "How on Earth will I cope if I still feel like this in 5 years".
I felt like metaphorical "poop" and was not prepared to continue this way.
"There must be a way around this incurable, mysterious and randomly flaring illness. This cant be how I will feel forever! Surely?!"
Life felt hard. Doctors told me its in my head and I struggled to make things work for the longest time.
everything changed when...
I realised I cannot rely solely on these doctors to get me better. I must do a lot of the work myself. That felt overwhelming.
Good news though, you don't have to do it alone.
Back then autoimmune disease was even more mysterious than it is now. My random complaints and symptoms were not making sense, so I was written off time and time again as "your labs look fine, it must be depression".
I mean, yeah I felt depressed, and I became a health concerned person. But its easy to feel that way when you have random symptoms, nobody seems to believe you and you are made to feel like you are going crazy?! It started to be a battle of physical and mental problems and I couldn't see which caused which and which came first.
Either way I knew this was a physical and mental issue. Not one or the other. And it worked in ways that went beyond what my initial psychotherapy training taught.